..make way..

..make way..

ڜ سض سض غأفي ښ ڜي

ڜ سض سض غأفي ښ ڜي
Eng: "a veritable potpourri of esoteric philosophical content of cognition" (lexical moron?)
Mallu: "endey thala-mandayil udicha thattum tadavum illatha chinthaa vispodanangaludey samaaharum"


Vampire chronicleS

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

free to go in?

A thousand years is but an instant. There’s nothing new, nothing different; same pattern over and over. The same clouds, same music, the same things I felt an hour or an eternity ago. There’s nothing here for me now, nothing at all. Now I remember, this happened to me before. This is why I left. You have begun to find your answers. Although it will seem difficult the rewards will be great. Exercise your human mind as fully as possible knowing that it is only an exercise. Build beautiful artifacts, solve problems, explore the secrets of the physical universe, savor the input from all the senses, filled with joy and sorrow and laughter, empathy, compassion, and tuck these emotional memories in your travel bag. I remember where I came from, and how I became human, why I hung around, and now my final departure’s scheduled: This way out, escaping velocity.  Not just eternity, but  Infinity.

Saturday, November 8, 2014

..my gShock gls 100

This is my 3rd G-Shock and I think this watch is so awesome that I feel like wearing it all the time.. :P

Sunday, April 6, 2014


...its only after we have lost everything
that we are free to do anything...

Thursday, July 19, 2012

..oh ma weed...

..If there is a God, then weed is the gift from him..and he's telling..its OK, just go and have some fun..

Monday, June 25, 2012

..bitch trauma..

..i finally know what trauma is..and its BAAADD..
..this is day 2 after the incident and I am still not able to get over it..we got beaten up by a pack of cops and that is NOT the worst of it..
..this is killing ma sleep..and i am a guy who slumbers the 3rd second i lie on ma bed and now it takes forever..i keep replaying the incident over and over again in ma mind and improvise what i could have said to her.."how come u r acting as if you had nothing 2 do with this? u r equally responsible for what happened yesterday..u were equally drunk as we were..we all decided to go out..when we were getting beaten up by cops,u were sitting peacefully inside the car..and if that DCP wasn't considerate enough to drop u safely back home,even u would have spend that entire night in the police station like us..he(my best friend) din close his eye even for a second the entire night as he was looking for a chance to get his phone back so that he can call u and tell u that he is OK, so that you can sleep peacefully..and what did u do?? very next day u call up everyone and made a huge mess out of this..u drag my mom 2 the police station..u embarrass your husband in front of his entire family and your family,so that you can save your face..and you want him(my friend) to call up everyone and EXPLAIN???..NO!! YOU explain.."
   "my car gets confiscated, my mom pays up for everyone..why did u even come to the police station the next day?..u came empty handed without even carrying your purse..what? u thought u could show ur fat ass and get ur husband out?..u kept on telling his(my friend) sister and my mom 2 scold us while acting as if u were not even there in the scene..u even told his(my friend) sister that u tried to stop us from going out that night..dude(my friend), u r a very nice guy man,but today u get 2 see your wife's true colors..and I don't understand why u still keep supporting this selfish manipulating backstabbing liar.. "

..well,this is exactly what i wanted to tell her,but I could just say the half of it..the lift stopped and she left immediately and I couldn't let out the entire thing..fukkkk.. and now all this rage and the pain is boiling in the inside of me and has thrown me at the mercy of this bitch trauma..i will hate her for the rest of my life...she is a very bad selfish person who wouldn't even mind backstabbing her own husband and friends just to make her look pretty in front of everyone..and i can never forget this incident which showed me who she really is..and this betrayal is affecting me so bad that I am sitting and writing this stupid blog in the middle of the night..people say that you can forgive someone and release your anger, but i can never forgive her and this is my 'bitch trauma'..and its mine FOREVER!!!..

Monday, September 19, 2011

..we are who we are..

..we are who we are..I'm not just repeating myself, I'm also swanning in a fact..let me break it down a little..a happy person stays always happy..a miserable person always miserable..repressed stays repressed..suppressed stays suppressed..hopeful stays hopeful..naive stays naive..I could go on..but you get the idea..

..I'm not saying there aren't any life changing incidents..there are..I'm just saying that people doesn't change just because they might have started seeing things in a new different light..probably after this "life-changing-incident"..but a person changing, is a completely different thing, it's on an entirely desparate level altogether..they might have just realized something..discovered something..which makes more sense at that particular point of time..maybe until the next 'life-changing-incident'..all it does is to change their outlook..that's all..but does this really change them, fundamentally?..or is it just that, that we call change.. the happy would find another reason to be happy..the miserable would find another thing to be miserable about..

..the reason why we are like this is irrelevant..and the reason why you are a particular type of person right now is also irrelevant because this is 2011 and we still haven't invented the advent "Time-Machine"..we still haven't discovered the x-ray glasses that let's you see people naked for crying out loud..forget a Time-Machine..so we will continue to go with the "bury-the-past" construct..

..what's relevant is the question..what will happen, when that person realizes this?..will he change, when he realizes that the way he feel right now is completely his prerogative..that it was just a drawn-out but simple (only complicated looking) choice he made in his life somewhere in the past..and that he still and always had complete control over it..will he be able to let go of all the episodes and his interpretations of it?..this would probably change him..wait, i said probably..did I just realize that I am not just the happy but also the hopeful?..so is this one of those "life-changing-incidents"?..so anyways..I don't know about you, but what I have realized now is that, yes, people never change..we just discover new shades for ourselves..like attributes to the class..life is always about discoveries right..see, even life doesn't change :)

..now reading the crap i have just written made me realize that I am also the self-righteous narcissistic-ally zen-full types..hmm..too many discoveries for a write-up i say..and the most funny and also the most relevant thing is - even after we realize all this, we just don't wanna change..we are who we are..

Saturday, September 17, 2011

....my mind holds the key..

The night screams my name and when I open the door there is no one in the doorway..mmm..